The distractions of social media and the reflection it may bring

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It’s midday and I have just completed some work for a client a few hours ago. I’m feeling tired, probably worn and I am aimlessly scrolling through Instagram. I come across this picture on one of the social media accounts I follow. It features a gorgeous black woman with a well-known television personality, who is white.

My curiosity is piqued and I head over to the comments and see people asking who this woman is. I have never heard or even seen her. I rush over to old trusty Google and do my own research. I go down the rabbit hole and look at their stories and the people they have dated. And out of nowhere I am filled with sadness. I know relationships don’t always work out but still...

I look at the pictures and think of the memories these people have, of a life well-lived or not, we don’t really know. Most of the photos feature smiles and couples hugging each other or holding each other close. In most of the pictures, the couples are young and for some reason, it reminds me of how fleeting youth is. It forces me to reflect on my own relationships, (mind you I feel too young to be thinking too deeply about this, I’m not even 30). Will I one day look back on my life and relationships with strange feelings, nostalgia, happiness, or resentment. Will I be happy with my life and the relationships, particularly the romantic ones? Will I have any regret about any of the relationships? Only time will tell.

I probably went down the rabbit hole too deep.